'cause here's my promise made tonight.

was going through some blogs & it really makes me wonder.. how did people manage to blog literally EVERYDAY?! where did they find the time? the mood? & most importantly, the inspiration!! & the shocking truth is, it's readable! not e typical "no one understands me.." kinda emo post nor is it post that is plain regurgitating what they did on that day itself (boring)! i'm super impressed. den i realise, they have been blogging since when? the achieves link all e way back to 2005! maybe blogging also take practise. maybe everyone start off with many thoughts running through their minds yet not knowing how to write them down. & step by step, they learn to put them down in words. it might not be perfect at first. but as time goes by, words jus come out more naturally. & den it becomes a habit.

i need to pick up this habit soon...


den i went back to all my old blogs for inspiration. also to seek out the passion tt i once have for writing which no longer exist in me now. & i come across this entry. will love to share it. it was written 2 years back.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006.

到了最后，我又回到了原点。
不想离开，却不得不转过身。
多想把你紧紧地抱住，却要装成毫不在乎。
上天就是那么的爱做弄人。
因为不想再被受伤害，所以宁愿伤害。
因为知道不可以爱，所以不爱。
因为你的离开，所以我先离开。
原谅我的自私。
我们都好理智。
忘了单纯的快乐。
忘了天真的浪漫。
可能我们一样的矛盾。
我们一样的没勇气去面对。
我会努力的把这一切都忘了。
希望你也是。

i can barely believe it's written by me. if i can express myself so openly last time. why cant i now?
soh bei en, what are you afraid of?